Complicated Feelings

My 1st posting, not much of happy thoughts but rather sad ones when my friends shouted "ORD!" infront of me.
Kinda hard to put my feelings and thoughts for the day down in the blog, but theres always a start in everything.^^ Probably i might find joy in sharing ideas and thoughts through blogging.

Gawd! I have finally started clearing my ORD leave. However the feeling of joy wasnt really there. Instead i felt the sadness and loneliness, having to leave my precious friends that i had made who had supported me in everyway possible. They have been through tough times with me giving priceless advises. Thank you all very much.

Have been feeling rather down these days, even so after last saturday event which involved fighting in a club, worrying for friends who got drunk badly, going through CCC (civillian conversion course) as well as my own feelings. All these thoughts are slowly dissolving me internally. I could feel the pain, fustrations and anger constantly, every minute, every seconds, every time i closed my eyes, every breath i inhale/exhale. Anyway these things is a things of yesterday. Special thanks to my friends who strained their ears listening to my troubles for almost an hour or more. I dont know how am i going to advance without them. ^^

Am still a greenhorn at blogging, so anyone who have visited and read my posting please feel free to drop comments/tips. Thank you very much